Journal Entry #5

Dear God

My heart is still hurting. I feel weak, exhausted and conflicted. I feel used and left behind.

I care so much, too much for the person who hurt me the most. I love deeply for people who disappoint me over and over again.

I feel defeated Lord please stay be my side and hold my broken heart.

I stood by his side when really I shouldn’t have. Isn’t that unconditional love? Why doesn’t that mean anything to him?

Do you see me Lord? When I’m curled in my bed with tears running down my face. I loved him without hesitation and without a thought for myself… Yet here I am rejected, forgotten and broken hearted.

Please Lord remind me who I am because I don’t know. Take me out of myself Lord and make me only want you.